30 December 2008

dissapointed in you...

Fuck!


I choosed to believe your words when the whole
world asked me not to,
& this is what i am rewarded by you.


Stupid me!


I think i know where i stand in your heart already.
Friends are always placed infront of me.
I'm just your substitude.
It's ok, uised to it long ago.


But never will i know you will do THESE!
Don't you have the guilt in you???


I already did my best as a girlfriend.
Willingly to be a fool for the past whole year.
Enough. Will learn to be smarter now. :)


You are best at keeping quiet all the time when i'm unpleased with you.
I'm like talking to the wall.
I shall learn from you, not replying your messages.
You see how is it feels like uh!



Don't worry, i did not reveal any of what you did, though

i have many thoughts in mind i need to pen it down.
I will still save some 'face' for you, knowing that
hundreds of souls are reading this.



NOTE: PLEASE DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED,
I WOULDN'T SPEAK A WORD.




Working on New Year's Eve is so worth it cos' of you.
At least it lets me wake up from the beautiful illusion.


Once bitten, twice shy.
& what's worst was this is more than twice.
To love you as much as i did in the past, i think i can't.


I think i'm suffering from split-personality soon.
One moment of laughter, & one moment of anger.
I don't really know exactly how should i feel right now.


Will be counting down to New Year with Mummy after work.
It wouldn't be a happy new year. Definitely not.


Goodbye 2008.
2009 will be a better year!

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